QQ II

I made fun of a friend today for being overweight. I shouldn't have. The last time I was underweight, my age was in reference to a trimester.

The smile on my sister's face today when everyone yelled "Surprise!" made the trip worth it. I hope she saw how much we love her. We know how much she loves us.

I learned from Shawn and his wife today that I don't have to change to be accepted, I just have to be confident in who I am. I also learned that a relationship with Jesus should not be a performance. If I'm performing, I know of Christ, but don't know Christ.

Bernie Mac passed away today. He was the only comedian I knew who talked about black life in a way that made me say, "I'm that guy. I'm proud to be that guy." You don't know how many times I've wanted to say, "I'm not scared of you mutha...." I'll leave the rest to your imagination. RIP Mr. McCullough; you're missed already.

Delivering scorn is beginning to feel as bad as receiving it. Maybe love is taking up a bigger place in my heart.

My heart feels glad when I hear my friends say, "We've got the perfect girl for you." In my heart I pray that Jesus is saying the same of me for her.

GM is working on a electric-gas car that is to hit showrooms by 2010 or 2011. It'll differ from hybrid cars in that it'll run off a lithium battery and use gas sparingly as opposed to the current proliferation of crossover vehicles that run off of gas with the battery being used sparingly or at low speeds. I hope it works.

The juxtaposition of good and evil is the theme of Star Wars; the battle between being ruled by our emotions (i.e., "flesh" to Christians) or the force (i.e., the "Spirit" to Christians). As Anakin Skywalker eventually succumbs to the temptations his feelings offer we learn in the power of the dark side. As Christians, we are sinners first, saved by grace second. Just as Luke had to battle against his father's curse, sometimes we have to escape the inherent sinful traits our parents pass to us and learn to trust and use the Holy Spirit to guide us, take advice from wise sages, and act out of our conscious mind, rather than blind devotion. Obi-Wan provides the advice, the force is the spirit, and the story parellels that complexity that is human emotion and spiritual devotion; a paradox indeed! The only reason the story is on my mind is because it was on the tube for hours at the birthday party today.

I like the attention I receive for my intellect. I like the love I receive for my personality. I hate having to be humbled. I believe it is best to humble myself than to have God humble me. Nothing that is done is of my own accord. I'm granted life and reason because he blessed me with it. To think that I am, by myself something, I come to find that I, by myself am nothing. It is the love Christ showed for me, coming to die for my sins, being willing to take the pain of the cross, even if I were the last man alive on earth, that makes me something. I don't want to be reminded of this; I pray that I will always live and act as if I truly know it.

Is anyone else excited to see the Olympics; I can't wait for track and field. I wonder how many gold medals Michael Phelps is going to win.

I am blessed because I have great friends and a wonderful family. I miss my brother. I want to know my nieces better. I miss my sister. I can't wait to watch a movie with her. I want to play basketball with my nephew; I'm sure he's going to be a natural.

I should offer to share my food, but I'm not ready to, so I'm not going to until my heart is right. Smile. Ciao.